Friends, Dr. Pepper, & Orange Buttons <3

Today was a pretty pleasant day. 

I really love this new little group of friends. I know part of the reason why I love modeling so much is because I just get to be pretty and hang out with them. Chase is still making fun of me for falling of the tread mill last night. While the actual event itself was really hilarious I find it way more entertaining that he laughs every time you refer to anything related to the topics of running, dancing, or tread mills.  I did a shoot today where I got to be a 1950's house wife and I poisoned Zack's pie, some pics turned out really cute!

Ryan texted me today with an apology. I felt rude not saying anything back, so I did eventually. I just don't feel ready to have him in my life again. I feel pretty solid in my beliefs and my self esteem. But he is a wild character and has found new ways to effect me before.  I am mostly disappointed in his dishonesty. Ever since the beginning of our friendship I valued him for his honesty. It's sad that I don't feel that I can trust him anymore.

However, Katy called me for a vent session. It meant a lot to me. I felt like she really opened up to me. I love it when that happens. I love it when people can trust me. Any doubts or fears of her pursuing her own goals in spite of my feelings have vanished. 

I watched the video from the skit at the beginning of the year, and I can definitely see where I lost the 20lbs! I am not too upset about getting that big, I am just going to try and be more aware of what I look like, I didn't realize how big I had gotten. It kinda crept up on me slowly. But I am not going to dwell. I am just going to try and keep losing weight and hopefully I can say the same thing about myself now. 

I have an addiction to Dr.Pepper. It's aweful. I love it so much. I get horrible horrible cravings for it. I think if I drink water instead and if I ditch pop all together, I am sure I will lose more weight. :) haha and if I keep running on tread mills. 

I am now transitioning into the hard level of Guitar Hero. It's tough and I fail sometimes. But I am excited to look cool shreddin on the orange button!